I guess I am just a huge fuck up. I have come to realize to I possess the incredible gift of being able to push people away, even though i wish they were closer.
I am currently in a state of panic. My eyes sting and I cant move from my bed.
What could I do differently?
Was is all my fault?
I can't answer these questions because my mind is not working.
Life, why do you hate me?
Sunday, March 15, 2009
?
My least favorite thing at the moment is being worried. If I was less worrisome, I think I'd enjoy life a little bit more.
Why worry about tomorrow, shall I stew about it now?
Shall I say, It is no use, give it up, throw in the towel?
Why worry about tomorrow, will it bring me health and gain?
Or shall I wake up in the morning, in poverty and pain?
Why worry about tomorrow, whatever comes my way?
I've got all that I can handle just to make it through today.
Why worry about tomorrow? There's no point or so it seems.
Will I wake up in the morning and find it's all been just a dream?
Tomorrow is only maybe, and though yesterday was rough.
Today is all I have, and yes, today is quite enough.
Yes, it's fun to dream, and there is nothing wrong with hopes.
For today, I'll do my best, and give thanks when it is gone.
-Jerry Ham
Why worry about tomorrow, shall I stew about it now?
Shall I say, It is no use, give it up, throw in the towel?
Why worry about tomorrow, will it bring me health and gain?
Or shall I wake up in the morning, in poverty and pain?
Why worry about tomorrow, whatever comes my way?
I've got all that I can handle just to make it through today.
Why worry about tomorrow? There's no point or so it seems.
Will I wake up in the morning and find it's all been just a dream?
Tomorrow is only maybe, and though yesterday was rough.
Today is all I have, and yes, today is quite enough.
Yes, it's fun to dream, and there is nothing wrong with hopes.
For today, I'll do my best, and give thanks when it is gone.
-Jerry Ham
Friday, March 13, 2009
lols of the week/weekly favorites
So a many funny random things happened this week that should be mentioned:
1. Our dress up day on monday.
2. The introduction of diagria - too much sangria can = diagria
3. A hilarious note posted on facebook that i found more amusing than serious
4. Bowling at the garage where we all showed off our amazing skills
5. Michael cracked out on aterol and then sleeping for a full 24 hours.
5. A fucking bee stung me while i was thrift store shopping.
-But lets be serious for just a minute. I want to discuss the fact that I am going to Lady GaGa on Monday and you should all be jealous. Thats right, be jealous.
Movies that must be seen:
-Watchmen
-FunnyLady
-All About Eve
-Frozen River
-I Love you, Man
-Sunshine Cleaners
Music of interest this week:
-Flo Rider - Right Round
-Of Montreal - Shes a Rejector
-Oasis - Falling Down
-Taylor Swift EVERYTHING
Topics to Discuss when nothing else is worthy of discussion:
-What Rochelle is wearing
-Chris Brown and Rihanna
-Roomates
-Spring Break plans
Things I am officially giving up as of Monday 3/16:
-Fast Food (thats right)
-ordering crunk food
1. Our dress up day on monday.
2. The introduction of diagria - too much sangria can = diagria
3. A hilarious note posted on facebook that i found more amusing than serious
4. Bowling at the garage where we all showed off our amazing skills
5. Michael cracked out on aterol and then sleeping for a full 24 hours.
5. A fucking bee stung me while i was thrift store shopping.
-But lets be serious for just a minute. I want to discuss the fact that I am going to Lady GaGa on Monday and you should all be jealous. Thats right, be jealous.
Movies that must be seen:
-Watchmen
-FunnyLady
-All About Eve
-Frozen River
-I Love you, Man
-Sunshine Cleaners
Music of interest this week:
-Flo Rider - Right Round
-Of Montreal - Shes a Rejector
-Oasis - Falling Down
-Taylor Swift EVERYTHING
Topics to Discuss when nothing else is worthy of discussion:
-What Rochelle is wearing
-Chris Brown and Rihanna
-Roomates
-Spring Break plans
Things I am officially giving up as of Monday 3/16:
-Fast Food (thats right)
-ordering crunk food
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
Sangria to Diagria: A revelation while in the tub, rubbadubdub
So have you heard about a bath dream?
Let me tell you about it. When you are in a bath and you kinda just dose off (practice this first because you may drown) and then you have this slight revelation about something or perhaps a deja vu. Well i had this the other day, I believe it was Monday and the dream went like this:
Splish Splash Splish Splash
-----Im in one of those movie dress up montages, you know where you find yourself in a giant closet full of clothes and there is a mirror and you just change outfits. Like 90 outfits in 3 minutes and you are with a friend and you are all giggly and shit???
Well i wanted to have one of those, but i dont really have that many clothes. In addition, the bath dream revealed that i would have a dress up party with Sangria. Now i hate Sangria, but you have to listen to a bath dream. So I got some Rossi, 5.99 at QFC WUT THE FUCK. HAD TO DO IT. and then it was time.
So we dressed up like our friends. Katherine, Jon, Michael and I. We went through facebook and found funny pictures to try to immitate. Of course we did this after consuming lots of sangria. The pictures will be up sometime soon of course.
On another side note:
Funny things that happened this past week:
1. I put a rubber band around the spray thing on the sink. and Blake turned it on and it was epically funny. Im such a child.
2. I have decided that i am not growing up. Instead I have devised a plan where i steal peoples livers, hearts, and go to Mexico to get cheap plastic surgery done. I cant reveal all of the plan, but basically ill be 24 forever. (24 just seems to be a good age)
3. In Fremont, this idiot guy we were with decided to throw a beer bottle at a cop car, we then proceeded to run away and hide in a ColdStone. And then got ice cream...
4. We also discussed if we were Asian, what kind of asian would i be. I decided id be Japanese. I mean they seem a lot hotter (Abi) and not as clingy. Was that offensive? Coalition for Global Concern please.
Let me tell you about it. When you are in a bath and you kinda just dose off (practice this first because you may drown) and then you have this slight revelation about something or perhaps a deja vu. Well i had this the other day, I believe it was Monday and the dream went like this:
Splish Splash Splish Splash
-----Im in one of those movie dress up montages, you know where you find yourself in a giant closet full of clothes and there is a mirror and you just change outfits. Like 90 outfits in 3 minutes and you are with a friend and you are all giggly and shit???
Well i wanted to have one of those, but i dont really have that many clothes. In addition, the bath dream revealed that i would have a dress up party with Sangria. Now i hate Sangria, but you have to listen to a bath dream. So I got some Rossi, 5.99 at QFC WUT THE FUCK. HAD TO DO IT. and then it was time.
So we dressed up like our friends. Katherine, Jon, Michael and I. We went through facebook and found funny pictures to try to immitate. Of course we did this after consuming lots of sangria. The pictures will be up sometime soon of course.
On another side note:
Funny things that happened this past week:
1. I put a rubber band around the spray thing on the sink. and Blake turned it on and it was epically funny. Im such a child.
2. I have decided that i am not growing up. Instead I have devised a plan where i steal peoples livers, hearts, and go to Mexico to get cheap plastic surgery done. I cant reveal all of the plan, but basically ill be 24 forever. (24 just seems to be a good age)
3. In Fremont, this idiot guy we were with decided to throw a beer bottle at a cop car, we then proceeded to run away and hide in a ColdStone. And then got ice cream...
4. We also discussed if we were Asian, what kind of asian would i be. I decided id be Japanese. I mean they seem a lot hotter (Abi) and not as clingy. Was that offensive? Coalition for Global Concern please.
Tuesday, March 3, 2009
Road Trippin to Forks (Knives and Spoons and Spatulas)
Vera is gonna love this one!!!
So, for my digital journalism class we went to Forks, Washington where Twilight is set and i did a digital article on the small town. So the town is like 4 hours away, and it was me, Jonathan, and Taylor and on the way we stopped in Lacey and had Costco pizza and Panera. Then we were on our way.
It rained the entire way there, like hard rain, it was nice. We played car games including the state capitol game, where we thought we are all good but probably texted google for the answers about 30 times. So we knew 20 state capitols out of 50. We also played im going on a cruise and Jon decided his category were "things that were white" and to him, a thing that is white is a POWERHOUSE. He meant to say white house but he thought he'd be tricky and call it a powerhouse.
ANYWAY, so jon and tay were baked for the entire car ride and im just chillin as they fall quiet and then say weird things. So we get to Forks and go around to all the places to see which are like 4 things. Then on the ride home we stop at the ocean and feed a seagull who shit on my car and scared Jon and Tay.
Well, this blog is really not interesting at all, but I havent written anything for awhile because my life hasnt been that interesting for some time now. OH on the way home we stopped at DQ and Taco Bell (highlight of the trip)
Lets see what else has happened to me.
Beer Pong tourney last weekend. Jackie and I lost in double overtime to a guy named Bubba and a Samoan named ChaCha. It was close, soooo close. Ummm..... UW game tonight, who knows what will happen.
Also, songs that i hate that Liz loves:
1. Im on a boat
2. Jizz in my pants
3. Anything else on her ipod
So, for my digital journalism class we went to Forks, Washington where Twilight is set and i did a digital article on the small town. So the town is like 4 hours away, and it was me, Jonathan, and Taylor and on the way we stopped in Lacey and had Costco pizza and Panera. Then we were on our way.
It rained the entire way there, like hard rain, it was nice. We played car games including the state capitol game, where we thought we are all good but probably texted google for the answers about 30 times. So we knew 20 state capitols out of 50. We also played im going on a cruise and Jon decided his category were "things that were white" and to him, a thing that is white is a POWERHOUSE. He meant to say white house but he thought he'd be tricky and call it a powerhouse.
ANYWAY, so jon and tay were baked for the entire car ride and im just chillin as they fall quiet and then say weird things. So we get to Forks and go around to all the places to see which are like 4 things. Then on the ride home we stop at the ocean and feed a seagull who shit on my car and scared Jon and Tay.
Well, this blog is really not interesting at all, but I havent written anything for awhile because my life hasnt been that interesting for some time now. OH on the way home we stopped at DQ and Taco Bell (highlight of the trip)
Lets see what else has happened to me.
Beer Pong tourney last weekend. Jackie and I lost in double overtime to a guy named Bubba and a Samoan named ChaCha. It was close, soooo close. Ummm..... UW game tonight, who knows what will happen.
Also, songs that i hate that Liz loves:
1. Im on a boat
2. Jizz in my pants
3. Anything else on her ipod
Wednesday, February 18, 2009
The Curious Case of the Button in the Soup
So i had lunch at Cstreet today and found a black button in my french onion soup. Should i sue? Maybe I will, I mean i could have choked and all. Well, I completely lost my appetite and tried to have a conversation with people but i kept coughing. I have been sick for a week now and have not gotten any better. Im pretty sure I either have mono or AIDS, one or the other. I know the symptoms for both are lots of coughing.
So, went to Vegas this weekend with my mamma and i chose not to gamble because I hate seeing my munies go down and down because i lose at just about everything in life. However, I had five dolla at the airport when i was flying home and i decided to play Wheel of Fortune. I put the five in and the first spin was some screaming lady which meant i got the bonus round and got to spin the big wheel. Before i pushed the button a man comes behind me who was sitting 4 machines down and yells behind my ear, WHEEEELL OFFF FORTUNEEE. This startled me into pushing the button so he would go away. So the wheel was spinning, and spinning, and spinning some more and it landed on 200 dolla. I jumped for joy.
Upon my 200, i still had an extra 4 dolla from my original 5 and decided to keep playing, i then hit another 350 dolla. WOW someone likes me.
So now back in Seattle, I have heard of some of the things that happened on Christinas 21 run (i wish i was there). I was told she kept slapping someone, tried to rip off Lizs windshield wipers, and got raped by daniel. Really it just sounds like a normal night.
I NEED TO GET BETTER SOOOON. Is AIDS curable yet?? Ill look it up. I want to go see the Beatles laser show tomorrow, but who knows. UGHGH fml
So, went to Vegas this weekend with my mamma and i chose not to gamble because I hate seeing my munies go down and down because i lose at just about everything in life. However, I had five dolla at the airport when i was flying home and i decided to play Wheel of Fortune. I put the five in and the first spin was some screaming lady which meant i got the bonus round and got to spin the big wheel. Before i pushed the button a man comes behind me who was sitting 4 machines down and yells behind my ear, WHEEEELL OFFF FORTUNEEE. This startled me into pushing the button so he would go away. So the wheel was spinning, and spinning, and spinning some more and it landed on 200 dolla. I jumped for joy.
Upon my 200, i still had an extra 4 dolla from my original 5 and decided to keep playing, i then hit another 350 dolla. WOW someone likes me.
So now back in Seattle, I have heard of some of the things that happened on Christinas 21 run (i wish i was there). I was told she kept slapping someone, tried to rip off Lizs windshield wipers, and got raped by daniel. Really it just sounds like a normal night.
I NEED TO GET BETTER SOOOON. Is AIDS curable yet?? Ill look it up. I want to go see the Beatles laser show tomorrow, but who knows. UGHGH fml
Monday, February 2, 2009
Im Trouble
Apparently, the entire school hates my group of friends. I found this bit of information out from two other gaybos. And with the decency that I do have I will just reveal their first initials. S and K.
Lets begin with S, in a hardcore battle of gayness, S and I fought to the death. However, he may have conquered my best throws when he said that my group of friends were questionable. Upon this backlash, I questioned what friends he was talking about. Of course, S had to mention the two most controversial and the two most intriguing. Miss Christina and Mr. Daniel.
Now, let me tell you something about Christina and why she is amazing. Christina can kick your ass while making pasta at the same time. Bitch dont mess with the bitch who threw the infamous cunt hunt and upcoming glamchola/sexy alter boys and dirty priests. Take that SU. suck it.
Daniel is a different story. Im pretty sure S is probs jealous that Daniel didnt pay him the time of day, but lets face it. Daniel is a bitch and can outbitch just about anybody.
Now on to the fact that I am trouble, based on what K says. i probably am trouble since it seems all i do is get belig and run around dancing and having an amazing time. Sorry, thats what my life is. My life is also keeping a 3.8 GPA and writing my ass off for multiple sources. And get your facts right K, the RedZone is to meant to include the entire school and not an exclusive group. Maybe if you would join, you would not feel so left out.
I feel like I am back in high school and its the cool group versus the outsiders. However, would we be classified as the cool group or outsiders? I would pick outsiders because none of us think we are cool, except for Daniel, and we would much rather prefer being hated than loved. Besides, lets face it, we are just hotter than all of you.
To make this blog better, I have compiled my group of friends into a list and why we are better than most people. Sorry, if you are not on this list, i cant think of you which may mean you are not important.
Vera - Total bitch and slut
Christina - Controversial corner
Liz - Insane and offensive
Jen - Has the Pose and the Time wave
Taylor - Bitch can outdrink even me
Katherine - She was captain of the softball team Bitch and can throw a punch
Daniel - Major gay slut
Jackie - Could give a shit what you think
Rochelle - Shes hot, and you're just jealous
Lauren - Knows how to work that pole
Abi - Can knock you out with one boob
Gloria - Invisible vommer
Alex - Will whip your ass into shape
Alex L - will outrun you
Gil - so trashy its classy
Jess - just dont mess with this bitch
Jeff - Is smarter than you
And let me say something about Miss Maura. This girl is so trendy, I cant even stand it. She also laughs at everything i say, and that means shes my favorite new person.
Lets begin with S, in a hardcore battle of gayness, S and I fought to the death. However, he may have conquered my best throws when he said that my group of friends were questionable. Upon this backlash, I questioned what friends he was talking about. Of course, S had to mention the two most controversial and the two most intriguing. Miss Christina and Mr. Daniel.
Now, let me tell you something about Christina and why she is amazing. Christina can kick your ass while making pasta at the same time. Bitch dont mess with the bitch who threw the infamous cunt hunt and upcoming glamchola/sexy alter boys and dirty priests. Take that SU. suck it.
Daniel is a different story. Im pretty sure S is probs jealous that Daniel didnt pay him the time of day, but lets face it. Daniel is a bitch and can outbitch just about anybody.
Now on to the fact that I am trouble, based on what K says. i probably am trouble since it seems all i do is get belig and run around dancing and having an amazing time. Sorry, thats what my life is. My life is also keeping a 3.8 GPA and writing my ass off for multiple sources. And get your facts right K, the RedZone is to meant to include the entire school and not an exclusive group. Maybe if you would join, you would not feel so left out.
I feel like I am back in high school and its the cool group versus the outsiders. However, would we be classified as the cool group or outsiders? I would pick outsiders because none of us think we are cool, except for Daniel, and we would much rather prefer being hated than loved. Besides, lets face it, we are just hotter than all of you.
To make this blog better, I have compiled my group of friends into a list and why we are better than most people. Sorry, if you are not on this list, i cant think of you which may mean you are not important.
Vera - Total bitch and slut
Christina - Controversial corner
Liz - Insane and offensive
Jen - Has the Pose and the Time wave
Taylor - Bitch can outdrink even me
Katherine - She was captain of the softball team Bitch and can throw a punch
Daniel - Major gay slut
Jackie - Could give a shit what you think
Rochelle - Shes hot, and you're just jealous
Lauren - Knows how to work that pole
Abi - Can knock you out with one boob
Gloria - Invisible vommer
Alex - Will whip your ass into shape
Alex L - will outrun you
Gil - so trashy its classy
Jess - just dont mess with this bitch
Jeff - Is smarter than you
And let me say something about Miss Maura. This girl is so trendy, I cant even stand it. She also laughs at everything i say, and that means shes my favorite new person.
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